Day 23: What’s Next

Good Question. I wish I knew the answer!

Here are some things that I have uncovered through this process:

I definitely know what people think of me and how I am viewed by others. That was not a surprise to me at all.
People think of me as this strong person who has it together. I have created this Persona…one that causes people to not worry or wonder about me and therefore, I don’t have people checking in with me, wondering how I am doing. I feel very alone sometimes….on this island that I have created.
For me, however, I am constantly thinking of others. I reach out often. Now don’t get me wrong…I get busy like the rest of us so I am not always GREAT at it. But the point being, I do get that feeling sometimes that I think of others more than they do of me.
I allow my confidence to be defined by others rather than by me. When I don’t get the pat on the back or the ‘atta girl, I start to doubt myself.
I love the short term or the long term projects that challenge me consistently. When it starts to draw out over time and I don’t feel challenged with the opp, I get bored.

I am sure there are other things that I have learned that I am missing above or not thinking of at this moment. But a good list to work from.

What’s Next?!?! My answer above was…I don’t know. But I do know. I need to take each of these and respond to them…determine if I need to take action on them.

I’ll do that tomorrow. I may even add to this list later this evening. But tomorrow I will focus on addressing them individually.

Till then!